poetry

i fade away…

~ jaysen ~ 2 Comments

 

it seems
that every morning a
soul-hungry-knife
waits, ready to
pick anew my wounded heart

i suppose i should thank it
and call it “friend”
keeping me from
closing up…
or off

to see you, the one, arrive each day
as two
brings the hurt back
even knowing you are not
mine to keep – to hold onto

this jealousy
as if there is such a thing
as “mine”
so ridiculous and seductive
the ego’s grasping

emotions
a whirling balloon on
restless wind
an uncaptained boat on
a raging sea

i cling to the Dharma

knowing
all will change
all will fade away
and yet in some way…
continue on

dying to my self
my ideas – my dreams
nothing to own – nothing to hold
of you and me
i fade

a lonely road
paved with wounds
watered with tears
tears giving life
sprouts of hope

a hope for a love complete
whatever that is…
i don’t know
i only know to hope for it
even as i know to breathe

even now
i hold you in my heart
so be well, dear friend
so be happy, dear love
and be at peace

for in my heart
you will remain
even as i fade away
and yet
continue on in some other way…

planting love…

~ jaysen ~ 1 Comment

i am
exhausted

my heart
grows weary

morning
noon and
night

anger jealously and hurt
come
to feed on this
weakened muscle

and this
tired soul

they leave nothing but
scraps of guilt
in
their gluttonous wake

i am exhausted
my heart grows weary

morning noon and night

i think i shall plant Love
in
this broken heart and weeping soul

we’ll see how they like feeding on that!

two who share one heart…

~ jaysen ~ 3 Comments

how can i, my love
define this friendship?

how can words
no matter their arrangement,
in all their
beauty, their splendor
their juiciness

how can any word
bring witness or testify
to the truth
of
you and me?

let us
throw away all words, friend
my love

for all fall short of
two who share
one heart

standing naked in the desert…

~ jaysen ~ 3 Comments

i bury myself deep
within
this bed of grief

wildly wrapping myself
in
sheets of anger and hurt

twisted and tangled
in
despair

memory washes over me
in
waves

uprooting these shallow feet

my breath barely escaping
this
heavily weighted chest

Oh!

To clear this crowded mind
and
reclaim this broken heart!

i stand naked in the desert
waiting

 

 

 

for Love to surprise me…

this is our calling…

~ jaysen ~ 1 Comment

i have been so greatly blessed these past few weeks.  a dear friend whom i only met a year ago, but most certainly have known for lifetimes, has been in town working on a show.

he is without a doubt one of the most beautiful people i have been gifted with having in my life.  his soul and his heart breathe love into life.

resting in the gratitude of having him near for this short time, i remembered a piece i wrote to him on a card for his birthday this past year.  i found a rough draft in my journal and i was taken with how much i felt this writing was for me, for all of us.  i have adapted it here to share with him and myself once again and for all of you for the first time.

peace and love!
~ j

 

this is our calling, this is our task

to Love
without reservation
     without hesitation

with complete openness
and
passion

without security
     with fearlessness

this is our calling

this is our task

may you, dear friends
be
successful in transforming
this world
with your Love and your Peace

you have, dear friends
already
awakened my life from this
dark sleep
with your Love and your Peace