loss and letting go…

good, bad, sad coming
good, bad, sad ever going
all of Life is Now

great suffering and bliss shared
in this, our One Heart


friends ~

without a doubt, these past two weeks have been a whirlwind of emotion. shadowed by worry, tension, grief, at times guilt, and with an even more consistent presence – confusion.
details are not necessary.  but the preceding weeks have brought the loss of people in my life and the seeming estrangement and confusion of what is a very dear to my heart friendship.  the price has been exhaustion, and at times an overwhelming burden of a weight i know i should not attempt to bear…and a feeling of helplessness, feeling alone, and deep, deep sadness.

Life is good.

i’m not making a joke.  Life is good.  we have never been promised an easy road.  the road ahead has guaranteed suffering.  but we also know that all these things pass.  and that the road ahead can be graced with many good, good things and if we open our eyes and hearts to it, we have Love available to us right here – right now.  like the Love that lives in our friendships.  i have no doubt that some of my closest friends have been the pillars that have been holding up my heart during this time.  pillars with names like Amy, Cynthie, Shannon, Mitch.  i am blessed.

in Buddhism we are taught that life is always changing, fleeting and transitioning. nothing is stationary.  how do i not grasp at friendships, at life, and control?  how do i go about this when feeling overwhelmed?

i sit.
i sit and breathe.
i sit with patience.
i sit with an open heart.
i sit and let go.
waiting with compassion for the Ocean’s next wave…

thank you, for keeping me company.

peace & love to you dear friends…

~ j

2 thoughts on “loss and letting go…

  1. Thank you Jaysen. For the reminder that life is good. It is so good, and every time I have been overwhelmed with grief and loss… I have come away from it bearing gifts… deepening friendships, cleared confusion, higher knowledge of self.

    It is getting there gracefully and lovingly that is my practice.

    Thank you for sharing your poetry… it gives us all such insight into your soul and into your suffering. Examining it, we can better support you, and we can know that we are not alone in our own suffering. What gifts you bring.

    Much love Jaysen~

  2. friends ~

    just want to make a note that along this journey i have been held up by many people. i noted the four names above, because they have spent significant time over the past couple weeks talking with me during what has been a difficult time. others have surprised me with their graciousness as well, like Jonathan and Lindsay. and still others although busy in their own lives and unable presently to spare time to hear the whole story, still sent some positive energy my way, like Trevor.

    i am thankful for all who are in my life. no doubt every person, present or not present at this time have been a gift and contributed to any good that comes from my life now.

    to quote Rainer Maria Rilke…

    “Destiny itself is like a wonderful wide tapestry in which evry thread is guided by an unspeakably tender hand, placed beside another thread, and held and carried by a hundred others.”

    thank you all for carrying me!

    namasté, peace.

    ~ j

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