the song in my heart…

dear one…

how can you be
any closer to me
than you are?

every cloud
bears the beauty
of your image
every star
your smile

every flower
blooms with the scent
of your grace and
the presence of
your peace

your breath is
my breath

your heartbeat
my heartbeat

and your thoughts
take flight in my dreams

the road
i travel is marked by
your footsteps
and these two hands
reach with yours

and dear one…

while the jealous Sun
burns with passion
for your love
and attention

you should know that
it is you who are
the song in my heart

as we gather…

i sit on the hood
of my car

staring out onto
a vast curtain of blue, purple
and veiled orange

the dusk breeze
whispers past my ears
with her occasional moan

the delight of waves
crashes below
eroded cliffs

seagulls laugh and chatter
as we gather

all of us adding
ourselves, one by one
to the chorus of silent observers

even the plants
who seem with great strength
to cling to the cliffs

they reach out toward
the infinite sky
rapt with attention

as we ~ all of us
gather one by one

all children
all expressions
of your joyous generosity

gathered along the edge
of your Presence
gathered to watch

Love embrace the horizon
and day greet night
with a starlit kiss

Love’s garden…

the other day
eyes to heaven
lamenting to my Beloved

“why haven’t i someone
to share my life?”

Love answered,
“have not you Love?”

“in abundance!” i replied,
“can’t you see
my heart spills over
in tears?”

“ah…yes, I see.”
in tenderness Love
answered.
“far too much for
one person…
you shall feed the world
with your Love.”

so, i went deep into
my garden
to plant more seeds
and
pray for rain

the dance…

the dance…

who knew i was so popular
on the dance floor?

one by one
they take my hands and
move my feet

the music always
playing

these friends
well, acquaintances really with
their many names

one after another
they come

there seems
no criteria for choosing
the equal opportunity dance partner
that i am

greed and chaos have
their turn
and then there’s charity and
peace

a two step with fear and
a waltz with worry

some joy and hope find
their way to the floor
true happiness always waiting
for me, patient as she is

my Beloved watching, waiting
not one to cut in
nope, not a rude bone there
this one’s a classy dancer

then anger with
his friends, resentment and
bitterness (the blind dancers that they are)
having their turn

loneliness comes along with
her slow song
she’s a subtle softy it seems, until
she lays one on me

the scent of depression
lingering…

no one wants to
dance with me and
why would they?

i take a dose of
ego mouthwash (you know the kind)
it lasts a little while then
it fades all too quickly

left standing alone thinking
about leaving this dance

the music still
playing
(well, i did say “always” didn’t i?)

but there standing
next to me waiting as
always
is my Beloved
hand extended, feet ready

no one leads better, you know?
(yeah, you do…dig deep in that heart memory)
such rhythm, such grace

i am carried away whisked
up like a fairy tale i rise
i rise, on love thick air
i rise

swirling and twirling a
cascade of tears, joyous and
sweet sweat showering down on
all these toe tappin’, party poppin’
line dancin’, disco fools

with our Love

a spinning top, i am
a Whirling Dervish, you see
that Rumi had it right and
Shams before him

with our Love
true happiness no
longer waits to
keep my dance card full

so i ask…
how can you possibly
sit out?

step away from the
punch bowl, friend and
bring forth your
two left feet

‘cuz this life ain’t for
wallflowers

it is Now…

my friends ~

below is a poem that i wrote on January 20, 2009 after watching the inauguration of the 44th President of the United States, Barack Obama.
i, like many in the U.S. and throughout the world, am inspired and refreshed by this turning of time, of perspective and attitude. as Mr. Obama said in his address, it is up to all of us to sacrifice, to work, to serve. these goals, these values are inherent at the core of all religious traditions…
may we be born-again to the awareness of the present moment, the gift of our life, and the opportunity to play our part in healing this world through compassion, kindness, peace, and love.

be well ~
j

it is Now

in this sacred moment of Now
with all of its momentary and
eternal meaning

alive with past
with future
with presence

it is Now

with all of its pain and pleasure
with all of its sorrow and joy
with all of its grievance and reconciliation

it is Now

with all of its despair and hope
with all of its doubt and faith
with all of its tears and laughing song

it is Now

in this sacred moment of Now
that we choose
in every breath
in every heartbeat
in every swimming cell of our bodies

to live in service to Life
to live in worship for Love

for
no longer are we one – but One
for
no longer is it me – but We
a tapestry solid and free
a community of humanity

it is Now

that we choose
to paint the skies with Love
to unfold the Wings of Hope
to walk these Words of Peace

it is Now

with all of who we are and surrender to be
that we choose to Love – to Love – to Love!

it is Now

in the sleeping face of cynicism
that we smile
our eyes awake with hope
with Love – with Love – with Love!

and
although some may
close their windows
draw their drapes
and
lock the doors to their hearts

we will Love – we will Love – we will Love!

and
we will see Love
lift us from our faltering foundations
and
we will see Love
carry us over the steepest of mountains
the most troubled of waters
and
the most barren of deserts

to the Promised Land
to the Highest Heaven
to the Sacredness of Now…

by Jaysen Matthew Waller

© Copyright 2009, Jaysen Matthew Waller

this moment…

 

it is here

it is all here

with its tastiness
with all there is to see
to smell
surrounded in sounds
it touches me…

it teaches me

it is here – this moment
with all its pain
with all its joy

there is no suffering

i smile to it – this moment
it is here

this is Life

sweet, sweet Life
and i swim naked in
its beauty

there is a home…

 

there is a home
beyond where i was born
deeper still
than where i live now

how do i return there…
to return to the present?

the Way, my friends
is Love
the Path, dear ones
is Understanding and Compassion

let us journey together
for we have never really been apart
and
truly we have no where to go

i see me…

 

how can i live
in this pain anymore?

my days
have been long filled
with hurt
with feelings of betrayal

and then
today
with a nudging from Life
our eyes met

looking deeply at you
truly, mindfully
seeing you
how can i be angry?

looking in your eyes i see
a child frightened, broken
desperately searching, seeking
longing to be understood

longing to know Love

i understand

looking in your eyes
i see me