i bury myself deep
within
this bed of grief
wildly wrapping myself
in
sheets of anger and hurt
twisted and tangled
in
despair
memory washes over me
in
waves
uprooting these shallow feet
my breath barely escaping
this
heavily weighted chest
Oh!
To clear this crowded mind
and
reclaim this broken heart!
i stand naked in the desert
waiting
for Love to surprise me…
The Metta Garden 
you discribed the lonely nights very well…
a man so full of love…
if there is anything that may provide you with a surprise, it is standing naked in the desert…which I plan on doing in the very near future…
I love you Jaysen.